[hearing those words really nails home where he fucked up. But also... makes him feel oddly warm? Knowing Josh did in fact hear them]

Yeah... and I didn't trust you. I thought I knew better what was right for you instead of just, you know, asking.

[he finally forced himself to meet Joshua's eyes, even though it's difficult to face the hurt he caused]

I'm sorry. I was... a real jackass.