[And he in turns rests his head against Josh's as he talk]

I... I wanted so much to go back to the RG. To try and be normal. But coming here... that's not going to happen. It probably wasn't even... even after Rindo's Game.

Hell... I don't... I don't know what normal is. I don't think I ever did.

[he was always outside. Even before he lost someone. Always aching for connections he could never fully form. His voice cracks as he talks, and Josh can likely feel steaming tears hitting his fur]